I originally wanted to write a review of a book, The Testament.  After I read a post from the HKblog, I decided to copy it and share with all of you.

祖國

十一國慶臨近，學校舉辦了一個名為「我心目中的祖國」的徵文比賽。

我心目中的祖國究竟是怎樣的，我已經弄不清了，只是想起一個西方諷刺中國人的笑話：如果伊甸園里的亞當和夏娃是中國人的話，就不會忤逆上帝的旨意受蛇的誘惑去吃掉蘋果。為什麼，因為他們會吃掉那條蛇。心里暗笑了。   

我出生於內地，在內地接受小學教育，自小老師就教我要以身為中國人為榮，因為中國是五千年文明大國，是禮儀之邦，有四大發明，而且什麼朝代又東征西討，擴大了中國的版圖，繼續說下去就是毛澤東，鄧小平的英偉事跡源源不絕，但卻沒說過半句文革六四。　

我出生於八十年代末，適逢六四事件，但我卻是在十二年後，到香港接受中學教育時才知悉中國有件大事叫六四。可想而知，中國的守言能力有多強，將秘密告訴它一定不怕洩漏，它會守口如瓶。

我以前讀的學校比香港的學校開放多了，就連校規也用不了幾條。學生在操場吸煙，學校也賴管。學生吸煙是很平常的事，但別忘記那間只是小學而已。而且打架欺凌更是天天可見，怎樣處理就要似乎老師的心情，要是心情好就會幫助調解；要是在昨天晚上輸了牌九，那就會送你兩個耳光奬勵你為他添麻煩了，我也領了不少。在學校，不要要求學生可以學到什麼知識，如果不學壞已經要謝天謝地了。

更恐怖的也有，幾個星期前看了一則新聞，內容是說有位家長為了幫孩子戒掉綱癮，將孩子送到一間戒綱癮的寄宿學校，可是孩子在學校不聽教官的話，最後被教官打死了。多駭人的的事，送孩子去學習變了送他去死。

中國的教育辦得有聲有色，政府也沒有一點遜色。強制用低價徵收農地，農民反抗就是為自己討來牢獄之苦。在祖國，法律從來都不是用來執法的，只提供給有錢人用來欺壓窮人的工具，住在隔壁街口的那位大叔犯了強姦案，只是花了幾千块給公安就解決了件事，這對受害人有多公平。

祖國人民的賺錢方式也是世界一流的，販賣兒童見怪不怪，偷內臟更成為了一個新興行業。那則轟動一時的案例你一定不會孤陋寡聞：一位青年在酒吧認識幾位新朋友，獲邀到別處繼續喝酒，並吃了一些不知名的藥，等他再醒來，發現自己全身赤裸地躺在浴缸中，而且浴缸裡滿滿的都是冰。藥效仍然沒完全退去，不過他望了四周，發現只剩下自己一個。他看了自己的胸部，發現上面用口紅寫了「快打 １１２，否則你會死。」對，他的內臟已被偷走了。據報導，在黑市裡，一對腎臟值15,000美元，也只有祖國同胞才有能力賺這筆錢。

另外，中國的科技水平和創意也挺不錯，研製了可讓孩子吃了變「大頭嬰」的奶粉，雞蛋也可以仿製，精工手袋名錶樣樣皆有，就區區一個深圳東門已經可以購買到來自全世界的名牌，繁榮不已。

而且，中國人的特質也聞名於世，記得幾年前香港迪士尼樂園開幕後，祖國同胞攜老恊幼趕來，一時之間大亂。有人插隊，有人狂呼大叫，有人就在園里當街尿尿，還發揚國粹在地上蹲一長蹓，有的母親更抱著孩子在洗手槽里大便。這些都是祖國貪官汙吏和資本家的家眷，是上流社會人士，真值得驕傲。

中國的貪官比哪都多，兩極分化太嚴重了，這個社會正走向一個極端。在祖國，官就是權力，錢就是法律，窮人就連最基本的生存權都沒有。什麼言論自由，新聞自由也不用多花唇費舌。香港記者被歐打一事已是完整的寫實。

現在的中國人和政府都帶著虛偽的面具，高尚的外表下卻是骯髒的靈魂，要學著辨認每個面具後面的嘴臉，以防被暗箭所傷，在這種社會氣氛下，人活得太累了。如果你還迷信中國文化博大精深，抱歉，你還是不可能深刻反省，你的靈魂還是要在苦海飄零。

在香港待了十年，有點慶幸的感覺，慶幸可以認清自己祖國的黑白，可以認清祖國同胞的性情行為，更慶幸可以認清了自己。

Reference: http://hkblog.xanga.com/712706102/%e7%a5%96%e5%9c%8b/

This is exact shit that I saw in China.

I haven't write anything for a while.  I've always been lacking the motivation and the courage to move on.  But within me, I know I have a say.  That's was what kept me to keep blogging before, and the same reason why I wanted to blog again.

Everytime I hold my pen with a blank sheet of paper, I grew anxious.  Self-consious kept stopping me to move on.  Comfort-zone is like a blackhole that keeps pulling you back from moving forward.  Although to break through in life is a wonderful experience.  At the same time, I have to admit that it is a terrifying process: to improve yourself every single day, to search for inspiration, to face critics, and to accept failures.  Non of the above is an easy task to endure.

Yet, I choose to move on.  Simply because I believe that God created my life more than what it meant to be now.  I believe that God created each life to be great.  Everyone can be a changer in this world.  Therefore, I become one.

This is probably the last performance that my band, PORK will have this year. I hope none of you will miss this out!
You'll also be able to get our EP there if you haven't get one!

... and where can u get the details??  here!: http://go.to/lmbf

Dream?!
Starring: Kinson Tam and Helen Ma

I just came back from my friend's gig which I played in.  One of the song that we perform was "等" by Danny Chan.  It was the song that catched me the most in this gig.  I logon to youtube to listen to this song immediately after I went home from the gig.  I did not only listen to Danny Chan's version but also those versions that sang by other celebrities like Jacky Cheung, Eason Chan and Hacken Lee.  Yet, Danny Chan's version was the one that catches me the most because of the emotion expression throughout this song. 

I start to think about why would the song call "等" when the word 等 doesn't really matches the other lyrics:  Danny Chan's emotion could fully show from the piano solo and his voice.  The lyrics was also deeply sadden and full of emotion.  Even though there were lot's of famous celebrities sang the same song that he did with great singing techniques, but non of them made an impact like he did throughout this song.

等...